I love life, I love the people in it, and I love every single thing that has ever happened to me - everything that had led me to the place I am now.
Today, as I sit, with everything I have - I am complete.
I never thought I would be happy without main stream success, now - I prefer independent films. The independent circuit is just what I prefer, it has more appeal and allure.
It's where I feel home.
I never thought I would have the friends and people in my life that I do. Of all professions, all job titles. From doctors and lawyers, small down-home business owners and ad agency superstars, to chefs and sales people... All types not mentioned, and in-between.
I am so blessed to have them. To have relationships with so many.
To have a small handful of people I can trust. I'd rather have 2 roots than 100 leaves (check previous blog entries for that explanation).
The people who have done me wrong that I maybe even miss or wish things had been different I owe thanks and blessings to. Hidden in the human pains and other emotions were good times, and good things. It would be wrong to not remember the good before the bad.
I am grateful for everyone who has ever stabbed me in the back. Everyone who has ever manipulated me. Everyone who has lied about me, to me, or 'on my behalf'. I am thankful, because it has all led me to this wonderful place. It has helped me discover more of myself. What I accept, don't, and see danger when it comes.
I am exactly, without question, where I am supposed to be.
That feels so empowering. So freeing. So peaceful.
With some help and reassurance from my guides, I have never been more sure of my gift. The signs I recieve, the fact that I will always be kept safe and protected. That I am not crazy, I am just living with eyes and ears that most aren't aware they have.
Carol Burnett says, "It took me a long time to realize that 'No' is a complete sentence. No explanation necessary."
Maya Angelou says, "I come as 1, I stand as 10,000."
There are so many others.
Hold the vision. Trust the process.
Iyanla Vanzant says. "Everything has a meaning, & every person has a purpose."
I have always known myself. Always had a solid head on my shoulders. What I haven't found, until recently, is peace about absolutely everything.
Everything. Past, present, future. Every person, every detail, every piece of it.
People are who they are. Their choices and such are for them and their story. Even if I was caught up in some negativity, partially on me due to not listening to my intuition, it was a lesson I learned. A road they're walking. I left positivity where I could, and had to move along.
The people I have loved and lost will always be with me. The lessons they taught me will never leave this world. I will pass them on and let as many as possible know they have lived. As time goes by, I hope it starts to hurt less. I hear it will. One day, I hope to save more lives with the tragic lessons I've learned because of their choices.
Every sticky business situation I've ever been in was to help me grow. Show me what is possible if I don't develop a strong sense of what I do want and won't compromise on. To help guide me toward a life decision, what I do want to do - in detail - for myself and others. It all helped me become who I am, and sent me to research/discover/learn what I know now.
Everything is a blessing.
I've had so much help and assistance in life, it's not even funny. Even when I thought it was bad... It was good.
Above all, I am eternally grateful for being the open book I am. I have met some people on these here interwebs that I would have never met in life. Had I not taken a chance. Across state lines, the only fabric of similarity was being a compassionate person. Enjoying meeting new people.
The best things in life hide in places you won't dare to explore.
Thank god I'm somewhat of a dare devil. *wink*
Perhaps it's my openness that helps me with energies, spirits and so forth. That must be a contributing factor.
I laugh about a lot of things. I poke fun at a lot, also. It's a part of who I am, and it's all in good fun. At the core of my being, it's all love. Every piece of it, regardless how it's observed and digested. Like a spiritual Paula Bel, LOL!
All for fun. A laugh, and some love.
Everything I've ever said, even harshly in personal life situations, or anywhere at all - is all out of love. It usually sounds much differently than its intended. I'm also honest. It's been a very interesting road to walk down on finding a middle ground for the world that doesn't see my soul, and just judges what I say by tone and content alone.
It's been peaceful and enjoyable just the same.
One day on hiatus, and already so much contentment. Not that there hasn't been before, but'cha know...
I wrote more of my script today. One of them, anyways. It's so hard to write it, it's very difficult. Just a lot I can't hash out alone, but I'm trusting I will eventually get it.
I've been assured that classic Hollywood is more like independent film culture than main stream studio things now a days. If the movies and films and people I admire were to do what they did then now, it would for sure have looked like exactly what I aspire to do.
No rush. No hurry. I am going to be 26 soon. I have all the time in the world.
As does anyone, of any age.
Count every blessing. Share joy with as many as possible. Turn negatives into positives, and always remember that your story matters. You're here for a purpose. A divine reason that you must discover.
You may have only scratched the surface.
You're meant to live in joy. Abundance. Happiness without conditions or limits. Always. In everything.
Fill your soul with light, and let that light spill into everything you say - do - touch.
On that note, I bid you farewell for now.